everybody hurts

was watching tv just now, and saw REM singing everybody hurts. reminds me of what i've been wanting to blog for a few weeks now.

was out for dinner with aik, dave, dennis, lun, justin and cheek and forgot who else! shit. anyway i havent seen cheek for damn long, and it felt good. he is, in his own words, the kind of guy who needs privacy and even if he doesn't see his friends for a very long time they can still cach up and talk like old pals. i would say i am one of those friends.

anyway he told me he was having relationship problems, and it was really out of the blue, not for me but him. it had been going well for quite a long time, and now this happens. it took everyone to leave, and for him to be left with me, til he told me what happened. its all kinda stupid and f-ed up the way things turned out. no wonder when i saw her at the alicia keys concert she said hi to my friend but not to me. another relationship gone, i hope not.

i think the week before i was having lunch with galvin when goose walked by. i called him but he didnt pick up. he called back and we talked, and he told me that he broke up with peggy. because she was more interested in watching movies and going out while he preferred talking to businessmen. i need go any further.

and just now i smsed kevin, asking him to play soccer tmr night. over our conversation he told me da broke up. i must say i am not overly sad for him, because being selfish means he is free on saturday nights for me. but then what makes a relationship last? he's such a great if not perfect guy, and he has all the wrong qualities as a friend that makes him good as a boyfriend.

no one's making any progress, and everythings falling apart for everyone. michael's single too, lun did a stupid things getting involved. and many others.

love is such an enigma, no man can believe he can grasp it or understand it. it promises much, pleases sometimes, yet fails to deliver and falls short at others. love is ambivalence. love cannot come alone, she is accompanied by hate. love pleasures and love hurts. and yet everyone seeks love, only to be hurt by her.

a common theme in romance movies is to let the heart rule the head. this sounds very romantic and exciting, but more often than not it leads to undesirable consequences. the head, men's rational mind and logical brain more often than not has the answers to love's riddles, yet no one chooses to heed the advice.

and it always fails, even the strongest ones. how girls can give up good relationships with nice and good and goodlooking guys for fakes and ugly fcks amazes me. and guys leave good nice girls for dreams that dont even belong to them. and happy couples suddenly deciding to stop, because they feel it wont work out, or they're too busy.

i seriously hope my friends and one particular family wont continue dwelling on this unfaithful emmotion of love, as we cannot truly grasp it at this stage. and seeing them embroiled in struggles because of this brings me down too, i feel sorry and sad for them. being in love is beautiful, but sometimes we must learn to fall out of love when we are stuck in it too long, or like quicksand she will pull us in and drown us, and we must surely die in her strong and suffocating embrace.

sounds hopeless doesnt it? it sounds hopeless to me. hope i am proven wrong soon.